rode thirty miles today.

was with him when he got called a faggot, feel bad even repeating it here, like saying it is giving it more power. i laughed. like. what the fuck. like that's funny, that they think that's mean. like, that's really the worse thing they can say about you? like you like boys? like I LIKE BOYS TOO.

always convinced that people who say faggot are hating themselves more than they are hating you. convinced that those boys wearing beaters driving around in their car on this hot day they want each other. they want to be parked and laying together, not driving in the heat, keeping their bodies far apart, shouting out windows.