of course there is a more important word document open. of course i am wasting time. of course ke$ha almost makes me cry when she comes up on my pandora, of course i cried in the bathroom, kneeling on the floor. of course it all reminds me of you. if course i'm not sure. of course you don't read my blog. of course i am a girl incapable of making choices or not being tired. of course i write long rambling stories about forgiveness. of course i want to try again. of course i want to stop trying and start laying in bed. of course i'd rather that we not go anywhere and that our lives be contained in a snow globe. of course we would blow up the snow globe, of course there is no choice in any of this. of course i love you.